The Actor- part 2

 My previous post might leave one wondering about my feelings towards the man I called my soulmate. (Whom I do my best not to name.) 

Well, yes I was head over heels for him. Every thing was great for a couple of days, until the whole 'I'm really a Time Lord living as a human with a preprogrammed human personality' thing. 

I mean, it SOUNDS really GASLIGHT-Y. Can you really blame me for getting angry? 

He comes to my planet, pretending to be a human actor, he hoards all the high paying movie roles, amasses billions of dollars/pounds, advocates for the poor and disabled to be left to die, insults me in my home, insults my clothes for not being luxury items, expects me to be dressed to the 9s with makeup and hair done just to sit at home, and causes the universe to end. Wouldn't that tick you off? 

I did NOT reject HIM, I rejected the false personality, my guy was not like THAT. 

Yes, we argued. Arguing doesn't mean hating. Most of the yelling that I did felt more like I was giving voice to the hurt feelings from past lives. So many lives with him. I did mention soulmates, right? Not just for one life, I have many lives. And several of me were angry with him. (Mostly for things he hadn't yet done, or that were as yet not done. )

So, though the relationship was rocky, we did sit and talk it out, quite often, and we came to terms. ( I feel as though some of those terms have been violated, as my world seems to be plunging into chaos, led by the orange man.) 

Though, there was a time, at that time, when I just gave up and decided not to like him at all. He was demanding and insulting. Apparently that immediately changed his universe, people kept turning against him, several of which yelled in his face. He really was "out of order". I stopped short of disliking the show, I tried it for about 10 seconds and my universe started changing, and not for the better. So I calmed myself as best as I could, and forced myself to decide to watch the show again. I did not have to watch it right then, just decide to in the future. 

Another thing that angered me was that a being such as him would come to my world and make a TV series glorifying himself, playing himself, and making himself seem like this big hero.  

It is just distasteful. I put in my objection with the High Courts. I soon found out that the show had to exist, integral part of the timeline and all that. 

I hadn't known much about the show, having only seen one episode. Somehow or another I ended up telling the story of the show. 

I had to tell it bit by bit, as those events took place. He asked where we should go, he poo pooed so many places.  

I said that I read H. P. Lovecraft, and that I wondered if we could find those underground structures that he had written about. There was something about triangular doors, as though the beings that built them were very wide at the bottom and narrow at the top. That one was a "No". He also seemed to think H. P. Lovecraft either didn't exist or didn't write that. 

I said that I had a dream where people were mispronouncing my name, to where it sounded like "Hathor". He wasn't into that either. I still saw it, stronger than ever. We would see the pyramids, and my name is mispronounced or misheard. He thinks this would get us in trouble with the Time Lords. It's not as though I didn't try to correct them. 

I said that I was always curious about the large stone H blocks in Central or South America. I had seen them in the opening credits of Ancient Aliens. I wanted to travel back in time to see how they originally were. I told him about using cacao beans as currency, and how the gardens were everywhere, our food grew right there along the paths and free to everyone. He thought it 'barbaric'. It is 'barbaric' to have people go hungry. It's 'barbaric' to have homeless people go without shelter. I felt that we would be there together, that we wed there.